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*bawls eyes out*

I'm scared to death!

I have a cyst in my right butt cheek that likes to flare up by creating a huge abssess and it hurt like a mother!
But ppl think thats its just a huge joke. But let my explain what I had to endure the last (and first) time it flared up.
It's on the side so it's really close to the crack.
Anyway, I always thought that the way I sat just bruised my tail bone, b/c it never showed any physical sign of being there. So it did just feel like my tailbone was bruised and it usualy goes away within a week.
Anyway, I noticed that there was a bump there this time (back in febuary) no bigger than a pimple and thought it strange. So I told my mom (who's a nurse) and she said it was prolly an abssess and if it got worse we'll go to the hospital. It got worse. It got to the point where I could sit down b/c it hurt so much. So I went to the hospital. And the fuck doctor! OMG! I wanted to punch him in the face! He kept poking it really hard asking me if it hurts. I'm "YES! That's why i'm here!" And then he said that it was tearing of the flesh and gave my some polyporsyn to put on it! ARE YOU BLIND!? There's a big lump there! Anyway, I went home and by monday (we went to the hospital on friday)I woke from the extreme pain. Went to take a hot bath b/c that was my only comfort fromt he pain. Haha! Didn't work! First it hurt to get out of bed, to walk to the bathroom and then to sit in the tub. At this point I took to sitting on my right hip b/c i couldn't sit on my ass. I was in such pain that I was in tears! (it takes a lot of Physical pain to make me cry) this was at 5am. I had to wait 2 hours before i could feel ok about calling my mom and waking her up. Finally, she came to get me, which took an hour b/c she had to get ready. Then The car ride! OMG! Try sitting in car when you can't sit! ha! it's not easy. I couldn't lay down either. If i laid on my back it put pressure on the abssess, if i laid on my stomache my legs would be pressed together putting pressure on it again. Then when we got to the hospital I had to wait another hour or so before the doctor came in to lance it. At least when we were in the waiting room (waiting for 20 mins.) I could stand and the pain was subsided. But when we got into a room he wanted me to lay down on my side which hurt like a bitch to do! Then he left for a good 45 mins. so I had my leg muscles clinched taking the weight off my ass for 45 mins. (my legs wouldn't stop spazing for a good 2 days)While we're waiting my mom asks if i could have something for the pain. The nurse comes back and injects me with moriphine. I don't know how ppl can be addicted to this shit! It was awful! ANd it didn't take the pain away at all! it just took my mind from it. Then the doctor comes in with freezing to freeze the abssess before he starts cutting it open. (ie./ lancing it.)
But he doesn't wait for the freezing to take effect. He injects and then immediately starts cutting me open.
Here I am a 23 yr old, laying on a strecher, getting an abssess cut open and screaming at the top of my lungs like a three yr old. The pain was excruciating! And then he has to pack it with gauze so it dosen't get infected.
the thing was prolly a good foot long and half an inche to a inche wide. He packs it in so that there's only about 3 inches hanging out.
BUT! he decides that the whole he cut in my isn't big enough, so he cut it bigger! Oh yeah! I'm laughin by this point. (yeah right. *glare* )
Finally, he's done. THANK GOD! I go home high as a kite! (b/c f the moriphine) I don't know what's going on. I fall asleep in the livingroom standing up, mind you. I catch myself just as I begin to fall forward. Go into my room just fall on the bed I can't even put the blankets over myself before i pass out. And then 20 mins later my mom come back with some tylenlo #3's for me, so the next week and a half i'm stoned out of my mind! Mind you, I have NEVER done ANY drugs of ANY kind before (and never will) so this whole experince for me is hell. I'm so confused most of the time, I don't know who my brother is most of the time, where I am and sometimes i didn't know who I was. It was hell!

Anyway, back to the present day. The whole things starting again! My ass is red (where the cyst is) it hurt to put the slightest pressure on it, and the pimple sized bump again. So I'm scared to death. I don't want to go through that again. I was recommanded that I get dat surgery to get the cyst removed, but my family doctor being the idiot he is said i don't need it and wouldn't refer me to a surgeon.
Oh yeah! I forgot to mention the size this thing grew to! If you cut a golf ball in half and placed it on the side of your ass, thats how big it was!

I don't want to go through the again. Plus, if it dosen't go away soon, that mean no wonderland for me T_T



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May. 16th, 2006 11:37 pm (UTC)
eeeeep that sounds super gross. Hopefully it goes away....
May. 17th, 2006 02:30 am (UTC)
OMG, hon, that sounds terrible! Those damn smartass doctors, I really hate 'em sometimes. It reminds me of a frightening moment in my life when my mom started having chest pains and we took her to the hospital - and what does the doctor say? Oh, she's fine, she just has a stomachache! An effing stomachache! Thankfully, though, we were able to finally get her admitted and thoroughly checked over - though the thing that still worries me is that, if we hadn't, she might have DIED, as it really WAS her heart. I'm sorry, I don't mean to scare you more or anything, but I guess what I'm saying is don't give up, and don't let those doctors take advantage of you the way they tried to do my mom. Stand your ground, and if one doctor won't help you, forget 'em and try seeing another. And I really hope you get to feeling better, hon! *huggles* And keep us posted to how you're doing...
May. 17th, 2006 02:55 am (UTC)
Omg! I got those before! I know how you feel, baby! If you check a few entries back, you can see what I went through. It's so fucking painful. It was so painful I was almost in tears. If you develop another abscess, there's a good chance that you may have Pilonidal Disease. Here's more info on it. I actually had to have surgery to remove the entire sinus in my ass and I have a terrible scar due to it. If you have any questions, don't hesitate to let me know. I know exactly what you're going through.
May. 17th, 2006 01:14 pm (UTC)
Well, this is the second time it's happened and it's always in the same spot. :-p
May. 17th, 2006 04:03 pm (UTC)
oh my god! i know exactly waht you are talking about and the scared pain you are feeling right now. oh god, i am so sorry. truly. i know that it is not funny what-so-ever. I know how scared you are. I had a boil on my crack. I thought that i had just bruised my tailbone so I didn't do anything about it for weeks...letting it incubate in my sweat and heat it turns. It just kept growing and growing and me not realizing what it really was and how bad it was of me to not get it checked out. Finally I go to the doctor because I couldn't sit anymore..literally. He opened me up (which hurt like a mofo) and found this huge boil. It was the MOST MOST MOST painful experience I have ever gone through adn still shutter to this day whenIt hink about it. I pray to dear God that it will never return. The other day I was worried it had because I had the same pain etc. My woman looked at it and saw that it was just an opened sore on the same spot that the boil had been. We took care of it right away with some band aid spray stuff..which thank the lord, helped it clear up completely.

I am so sorry and am sending you all the luck and love in the world over this, okay^?
May. 17th, 2006 04:04 pm (UTC)
oh, and I screamed my ass off as well like a little child. People in the hallways were scared shitless because of the screams I was letting out.
May. 17th, 2006 05:43 pm (UTC)
lol. I know I kept wondering what ppl in the halls were thinking the doctor was doing to me b/c of my screams. :-p
And just like you to this day I'm scared to death when the subject of boils or abscesses arise. I'm reading a book and they use "just like lancing a boil" to describe something, I threw the book down and thought I was going to be sick. And the other day (i can't remember what I was watching) but they were talking about lancing abscesses, i couldn't turn the channel fast enough. I feel the type of fear that ppl who are afriad of.... say snakes feel when they come across one, everytime I hear about abscesses and boils. I know it such a silly thing to be afraid of, but after what I wen through I have the right! lol :-p
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